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The One......Maybe??

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"You have the right to remain silent. So shut up. You have the right to an attorney. If you can't afford an attorney, we will provide you with the dumbest lawyer on earth. If you get Johnny Cochrane, I'll kill ya."
~Lethal Weapon 4

Life is just so good now. ^_^

My job is going great. I've been getting design commisions out the wazoo; I've finished the designs for my boss (they're up on MySpace), IRS Union wants me to design new T-shirts for them, lots of people my mom works with wants me to design computer backgrounds specifically for them. ^_^

And I've been writing non-stop. My wonderful sci-fi/military story still has no title but its been going really great and I've actually been able to start writing The Forsaken again and that's going rather well. And my fanfiction acct has been being used again by moi. I've gotten two new fics up that have been reviewed and added to favorites. ^_^

Anson took his first step abuot a week ago and took his first double step yesterday. ^_^ He's growing up so fast, and there's days I'm just not ready for it. But its so wonderful to watch him. He's such a happy little boy. I can't call him a baby anymore, even though he'll always be my baby, but he's definently a little boy now. Too much of a little genius for my own good.

And then...^_^() Guess what. I know I know, you're all thinking the same thing. Oh no, she met a guy. As I've had decidely bad luck in that area, especially when it come sot meeting them in person. Note: And no, the whole passion thing was not THE ONE, just a friend, nothing more nothing less: End Note

But this guy I've met, we've been friends for about 4 years now, but we lost touch when AJ and I had gotten married, and they way we hooked back up after AJ and I got divorced was a total fluke. I had left my Yahoo acct. logged on and my sister was on the internet and they started yelling at each other trying to find out who we were. So I come in cuz Marianna's all scared, and I find out who it is and all. And we just started talking again. We've been talking every single day. We talk for hours on the phone. We talked till 2am last night, and we're actually on the phone now we started at 11am and its now going past 2pm. So yeah ^_^ I love talking to him. He's LDS, 25, Air Force Guard, lives in Boise, etc. ^_^ I think I may be falling in love with him, very hard. But I don't want to get married like right away, I want to wait a good long while before that's even an option. but I wouldn't mind dating him. ^_^ Kissing him, etc. I know I know, don't rush things. And I won't! But I like him. His name is Reed Nelson. He comes from a huge family. Its like he told me and I was all O_O...dude, big family. But I like him.....a lot. ^_^()

Anyways so yeah, I walk around with goofy grin on my face all the time. ^_^ Its great.

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My Dreams Are Coming Through

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"When the first baby laughed for the first time, the laugh broke into a thousand pieces, and they all went skipping about. And that was the beginning of fairies. "
~Finding Neverland

The past two days have been far more interesting than usual.

Yesterday I went to Costco simply to pick up a few things needed for the baby. I prefer to buy diapers and wipes in bulk to save time and money (it tends to work better that way). While I was there I saw a new book up for sale called "A Train to Potevka: An American Spy in Russia". While I was looking at it I looked up at the advertising poster and lo and behold it said 'Meet the Author'; so I look over and go O_O.........Mike Ramsdell was sitting right there. Mike Ramsdell, friends with Dean Hughes. So I go over and not only does he sign my copy of his book, but he also gives me his phone number and email address; wanna know why?? So I can call him and he can help me self-publish my books. That's right folks, Mike Ramsdell sat there and told me how proud he was of me for being so young (21), having gone through so much, and yet I've been writing two novels. He's especially interested in my sci-fi-military story which I have yet to name. We talked for what seemed like forever. He wanted to know everything about my books, how long I've been writing, why I love to write, my favorite books to read, everything. I've never had a more enjoyable conversation in such a long time. ^_^ It was nice to have such an esteemed author tell me they were proud of me and what sincerely interested in my books.

On top of that I got a mailer (as I'm sure everyone else did) that a new megaplex is opening up on the 22nd, and Igot tons of coupons to use up there. My biggest draw there is reserved seating. As many of you know one of my biggest pet peeve is when I go to see a movie only to have people sprawling not only there belongings but also their body across seats to save them making the experience for someone else impossible to enjoy. I will very much enjoy reserving seating for HP5 next month. ^_^()

Well, that's my update. My happy endorphins are through the roof the past few days and nothing has been able to dampen my spirits. ^_^

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Go to the Mattresses

Quote of the Day

"Although I must warn you... when you eventually have the pleasure of saying the thing you want to say at the moment you’re wanting to say it... remorse eventually follows..." ~You've Got Mail

As you may have read I've had a couple of responses to my last entry here.  And it got me to thinking.

What do you do when you hold a lot of dirt on someone? What do you do when you could easily throw them off the pedestal the hold themselves on?

This person who has always been able to push all the right buttons on me, made a response to my last entry. I immediately thought of more than a few things I could do to exact my revenge. But then I thought, "Wouldn't I be playing into their hands?" Then came the thought "And wouldn't I be lowering myself to be exactly as bad as they are??"

When you hold all the cards....the Royale Flush of hands to really ruin someone or at least make them feel horrid....do you play the hand or fold?

Then I remembered this: "And then the most miraculous thing happened, for the first time in my life, I was able to say the thing I wanted and the exact time I wanted, and afterwards I felt horrible as you said I would. And even though I can't imagine what I said mattered to this person, to him I am just a bug to be crushed...but what if it did? No matter what he has done to me, it doesn't excuse my behavior." (You've Got Mail)

I'm try to be a good person, I don't lie, cheat, steal, manipulate other people. I'm far from perfect but I'm trying my best to be a good person, even more so, so my son has a good example as to what kind of person he would like to be when he's older.

It was hard to make the decision to simply move on with my life, be the better person and not respond to the list of lies that was posted. Every ounce of my being wanted to "Go to the Mattresses" and really lay siege. But God works in mysterious ways; as I vented out my ways of truly embarassing and humiliating this person, two very simple scriptures came to mind.....scriptures I probably had not read or thought of for many years.

Romans 12:19
Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.

Hebrews 10:30
For we know him that hath said, Vengeance belongeth unto me, I will recompense, saith the Lord. And again, The Lord shall judge his people.

I'm moving on. I want my life to be good, filled with good people and good choices. And taking the bait from people who are merely looking for attention, is not going to help me to do that.

A Response

http://www.xanga.com/Yukiko_Lune/596691946/what-do-you-think.html

"This month has been fairly exhausting & it's barely begun. My mother moved out on the 1st & K* moved in. This would be no big deal except for the fact that my best friend Angel** wants nothing to do with K. There were apparently some things that K did that Angel doesn't like. I'm wanting to alienate my best friend of more years than I can count on two hands, and you can all call me naive if you wish, but K hasn't done anything to me & she was the only one of our friends who wanted to move in and had the money to do so right away. Plus, as I've said, K has done nothing to me & I'm not going to judge her by things that have gone on previously. I'm just not that type of person. Again you may call me naive if you wish, but just because a person has apparently done something once, doesn't mean it's going to get done again. Besides, as I've already stated, she has done nothing to me, my husband, or my daughter, to make us mistrust or dislike her. Now the things that she K did that Angel doesn't like, yes those things aren't exactly things that are forgiven easily if at all, but they were not done to me & people have been known to change all the time and naive little me, I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. If Angel chooses not to come around due to the fact that K currently resides in my home, well that is her decision and I will respect that. I will just go to her house to visit her if that is what she would prefer. I'll even avoid any mention of K's name while around Angel & her family if they so wish it. However I've never just decided to tell a person, "Well I'm not going to be around you or be your friend because my best friend doesn't like you and/or the things you've done." I've had that kind of thing go on my whole life, not between Angel & K, but with other friends I've made. Some of my friends didn't like Keith at first, but if I'd listened to them rather than my heart I wouldn't be married to the man of my dreams & the most important man in my life, now would I? The rules stood then & they still stand now. I'll not break off a friendship with one friend just because he/she is not liked by another of my friends. If anyone did that we'd all run out of friends fairly fast now wouldn't we? My theory is that everyone should be given benefit of the doubt & not everything is as bad as it seems. My best friend, Angel, has given me her reasons for not caring to associate with K & I completely understand them, however K is also my friend and I won't lose one friend to please the other. But I'm ranting... it's all true though."

Okay I'm responding to above post. The link above it takes you to the actual post if you wish to read it. FYI as you read above post, I AM ANGEL.

Now fellow Xangans, answer me something hypothetically. If you had a friend or family member come to you and tell you that Person A did drugs, or was an alcoholic, or a leech, etc would you not avoid them simply because of those issues?? Whether or not you would, I certainly would because those are not things I wish to have in my life.

I am not a vindictive person, I prefer to leave vengeance in the hands of God, I believe He will dole out vengeance as he sees fit. Nor am I a manipulator when it comes to people, wishing them to follow my lead whatever that lead may be. I'm a firm believer that people need to make their own choices regardless of what other people do or say. However, I also believe that in making those choices people should be well informed in any information that could be useful in making said choices.

Not that I've covered myself, now on to the response. During this past Ren Faire that I went to with Caty and Keith. Someone I used to consider my friend showed up and the four of us enjoyed a great time together. During our excursions in the evening time, alcohol was brought out and drank. In doing so Keith and said friend both got fairly smashed. In doing so, said friend informed me that she had had an affair with my ex-husband long before we were divorced. Maybe she believed because I hate him with every ounce of my soul that this would be a bonding point for us. Strangely enough (sarcasm), it wasn't. I do not believe anyone who is willing to have an affair is a worthwhile person, and deserves to be drug out and shot.

Because of this instance I am no longer willing to have said friend in my life anymore. It is not an influence I wish to have in my life or my family’s life. Because Caty and Keith were getting closer to said friend, I told them of my wishes to keep her away. And none of the three have kept that in mind when contacting me and I found that rather rude of them. I do not see an affair as something that can be forgiven nor trust regained. Perhaps that is just my feelings on the subject, but I've been through it enough personally and have been the outsider when it has happened to my family members that I wholeheartedly disagree with it happening at all, and as said before said people should be shot.

While at said Ren Faire, as friend and Keith got drunk, they started making out with each other right next to Caty who was in bed with them. (Caty and Keith are married). So I find it resentful and a rather large lie that it is said in above post that said friend has done absolutely nothing to Caty or Keith. But again this is my personal opinion.

I love Caty and Keith as family. I would not trade them for anything in the world. Caty has been my best friend for almost 12 years now, even someone I would consider my sister. So yes I can say it hurts a great deal to have her say she feels like alienating me due to said friend's presence in her life. However, I do not feel as though it is my responsibility to fight for a friendship I love so dearly. If it is not a friendship that Caty loves so dearly than so be it. I will move on with my life, hurt as I am, but not wavering in my morals standards.

Hairspray

QUOTE OF THE DAY
"Were I unwed I'd take you in a manly fashion...cuz you're pretty."
~Firefly

 Happy Thought Today
~Nothing new bad has happened

So here I am at work, just minding my own business. Helping customers, fizing printers/cartridges, getting inky, slicing off parts of my hands because of sharp implements I work with, all in all a fairly typical day. Well, as all normal humans need to function properly, I had to empty my bladder. Well the bathroom near where i work was up two flights and the only way to get there was cut off my repairs. So I had to go all the way to the other end of the mall to use the facilities. I really wasn't to worried about it as it was a nice way to strech my legs and leave the montony of my work behind me for a few moments.

I bet you're wondering why my title is 'Hairspray' right about now aren't you?? Paitience I'm getting to that.

So there I am walking down to the other end of the mall, weaving in an out of patrons till I get to the bathroom. Where I pass Russell (security guard) going the other way, and we throw our normal flirts at each other "hey gorgeous" "what's happenng beautiful." Ya know, the basics. Well I get into the bathroom and release my bladder. So I come out to wash my hands, etc. and there in front of me 3 gorgeous girls who could very ell be Barbie clones in live size proportions.

Maybe I'm weird or something but I'm always drawn to look at a woman's hair.

So that's the first thing I notice about them (besides their obvious lack to wear clothing that flatters the figure but instead insist on wearing what is fashionable). Their hair, while not only horridly dry as if they purposely wished to take any moisture in their hair and discard it, but are in the exact same style in varying degrees of height. They were obviously trying to see who's hair could reach the cieling first.

Perhaps I'm just old fashioned, but a woman's hair used to be something they treated with care and respect, mostly because it was the first thing to enhance a woman's looks. Having hair that has that beautiful sheen to it because of moisture, gerenal upkeep, and tenderness used to be a quality most men looked for. There's just something sexy about running your finger's through your lover's hair during a moment in time, whether it be after a passionate lovemaking session or a simple, romantic caress. I'm sorry but if a woman's hair nis dry and brittle because of all the crap she does to it, i.e.: hairspray, straightening, perms, dyes, curlers, teasing, (need I go on), its hardly going to be a fond caress. Not to mention its just ugly.

I take great pride in my hair. Its nothing special, asi have it cut short for managability. but its thick, moisturized, silky, a fiery red. Color set aside, doesn't that sound nicer that dry, brittle fashionable hair?

Now that I notice it, the m,ajority of the women passing me at work ALL have that type of hair. Dry, brittle, teased, stacked high hair. I've only seen a handful, maybe less, besid emyself who have that pretty , silky, shiny hair worthy of complimenting.

Ladies, if you're gonna wear the "fashions" that don't compliment your body styles, at least tale care of your hair. Give yourself something to fall back on to enhance your beauty.